Unjust punishment...

I am lazy. I have never denied that. Tonight, like almost every other night, I couldn't be bothered cooking... So I went to order pizza (that I REALLY can't afford) but stopped myself... I said self, get clothes on, get in your car and go to Coles and do your grocery shopping... So I threw on my ugly gray track pants and my big, baggy Adidas hoodie, didn't worry about make up to hide my unusually terrible skin and I thought this was a great idea! I was really proud of myself for not being lazy...

I get to Coles and I am there for 10 seconds before a see a guy I haven't seen in 2 years almost to the day. (On the 6th of April it will have been 2 years)... Why would the universe punish me in such a way? I would have liked to see him when I had straightened hair, make up on and was looking thin. I was crushed.

This isn't a boy I've slept with. We did spend an intoxicated night asleep on top of my dining table for my 20th birthday, but other than that, nothing more than sexual innuendo and jokes.

I believe I was punished for trying to do the right thing.

Lesson I learnt today: ALWAYS order take away over cooking...